更新时间:2011-12-01

落哀 • 早安孟买:生命的齿轮（英文版）

It’s all about growing up, all about struggling, all about darkness and all about the wheel of our life.
Everyone in this movie is or was struggling to the reality, but in the end, they’ve all compromised to it.

No.1 a group of young waifs
It’s right after they—a group of young waifs robbed a rich old man. They were taking a luxurious carriage, sitting there singing loudly and with great emotion. When I saw this in the movie, it reminded me about my crazy time after I passed the final exam to attend a high school. We went shopping and had a great time there in the mall, watching movies cheering for all we’ve done for these days. We didn’t go home until late in the midnight that day. It was dark and a little bit cold, freeze kissing our faces sweetly. We caught the last subway and then, we danced and sang in there. It reminded me that they were still kids, no matter what they did before and in order to get money to go home no matter how they got that money. Deep inside their hearts, there were still something soft and warm, with strong hope and stubborn belief. Probably they were kind of unruly, they were full of sunshine. They still had strength to struggle in the reality. That piece of image really shocked me.

No.2 sweet sixteen
There is one picture of her from two different situations remaining in my mind. In the picture there was a young girl sitting in the car, watching out from the window. When she first came here to the bordello, she was in the car watching outside with curiosity and fear. From her clear and scared eyes full of water, I saw her innocence and chasteness as a girl of sixteen who haven’t seen this whole world—the world of darkness and lies. But in the end it’s also her sitting in the car, watching outside from the back window of the car, with sadness and disbelief. Once she felt she would leave the bordello because of the love of Barbar, but she was wrong. When Krishna went back from the prison and tried to get her out of the bordello, she refused. He saw her dressing up and showing him the picture of Barbar and her. She was only sixteen, she came to this place for awhile and then she went back in the same car. Nothing really changed during this time, but she was not sixteen any more, and she was not sweet any longer. That’s what she lost, and what she desired, in this wheel of life. And that’s her life which she couldn’t change.

No.3 Chillum
He sold drug for Barbar, stole money of Krishna’s and finally died because he overate the drugs and the disease in his lung. He was Chillum, one of many Chillums. He’s tried and struggled against his disease and eager for drugs so much that he almost killed himself by hitting the train. But he failed. He stole Krishna’s money and drunk again. No matter how hard he tried, in the end he still couldn’t change his life. But for Barbar, he was not important and not worthy feeling pity for at all. He was just one of the many Chillums in this world. One Chillum fell down, many would stand up. Just like what he showed in the movie. After his death, there was another person took his place called Chillum who drank drugs, worked for Barbar and stole Krishna’s money. It seemed that all got back to the beginning. Someone achieved something in their own way, and didn’t even see the ending directly to their death.

No.4 Rekha
After the whole movie, there’s only one thing about her remaining in my mind that is she was crying in the prison when she saw her daughter there. Probably she did something wrong and bad for this society before, and probably it’s not convenient to have a daughter with her to be a prostitute, but if she lost her, all seemed meaningless then. In the end she wanted to give up this job. From her I’ve seen the true love of a mother like when she was dancing with her daughter and Krishna, and the darkness and resignation to be a prostitute.

No.5 Krishna
I’m so moved by his stubborn and the spirit of “never give up” at first. He wanted to go home so he had to get enough money for the ticket of the train. Whenever he got enough money already, something happened so that he couldn’t really get that in the end. But he didn’t say anything, not even cried. He had a golden heart. When he first saw the sweet sixteen, he decided to save her from the bordello so he played a fire. He was caught by polis just because of Manju. He was bullied in the prison because he wanted to help another kid which was kind of weak there. And in the end he left Barbar because he saved Rekha. But things were not good for him. He wanted to go home badly. Even though he probably did something not that good to others, but it’s all about going home, as if you would get peace if you did so. But he didn’t, even in the end. He was lost in the crowd and finally he was crying, with a stone which he got at the beginning of the movie in his hand. All seemed a wheel. All these kids were trying their best to survive from the reality, but nobody succeeded, and some didn’t even finish that and went directly to the death. Then apparently, he stopped crying. And from then on, he was not a little kid any longer. He has grown up. And his heart has undergone so many troubles that he would no longer be that clear and innocent.

We are taught that to fight is almost always the best way to go through troubles, but indeed we have to say that most of the time the results for anybody are nearly the same. The only difference at this point is you’ll achieve more than others. It’s impossible to refuse the reality. In life, everyone, in the end has been taught to accept the darkness of this world.